Though the mourning has long past and I've long forgotten even what it was like to be one half of a couple, I can't help but take pause and reflect for a bit every October 7th. Today is mine and Joe's eight year unniversary. That is, eight years ago tonight I began the new life that I am still living now.
Back then I never would have envisioned how my life would turn out at this point. I thought for sure that I'd have been in another long-term relationship by now, but I am not. Nor are there any prospects on my horizon. Though I know I'm getting up there in age, I know that I'm still a catch, but I worry for how much longer.
I don't spend too much time worrying about it, though. I'm not outwardly looking for anyone in particular, but I know I don't want to be alone for the rest of my life. Right now I would just love for someone to share weekends and good times with, yet still have time for my life. I just happen to be stuck in an unfortunate world of promiscuity and shallowness and my age only makes it more difficult to find someone...anyone, normal.
In the meantime I've got friends, family, students, colleagues, plenty of love all around me...and I cherish my relationships with all of them. As any of my blog or Instagram followers or Facebook friends can attest, I'm never at a shortage of fun things to do. Is that enough though?
From my experiences in life, I've always felt that once you reach a certain age, yeah, your friends become more of your life because you've already spent years and years with your companion and you need other outlets to keep you busy, But I've done everything in my life bass ackwards and so have I already had my companion time? Am I doomed to be devoid of a true, loving companionship for the rest of my days? Or is there still someone out there in my future? I just don't know.
For now, all I can do is keep on doing what I'm doing, making the most of whatever opportunities come my way and enjoy whatever life has to offer. I'm going to continue to hang out with my buds, enjoy the time I have to spend with my students, colleagues and family, and keep one eye open at all times...
There, you see? I didn't even talk about Joe. Lol.
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